#9 Just LikeTheir Mum and Dad – Sep 20, 2007
Well, after a really awful day on Tuesday the worst of the miscarriage is now over. It turned out that despite only being 7 weeks old the twins had already inherited the stubborness of their parents, and caused me loads of grief on Tuesday by refusing to leave me!
As I said in my last entry I had to go to hospital on Sunday and take the first tablet as part of the medical management to force the miscarriage. This tablet altered my progesterone levels and made my body realise the pregancy was over. Then on Tuesday I had to take another series of tablets to trigger the miscarriage to actually start. So, I took them at about 10:30am, but instead of expelling the pregnancy my body instead tried to go into labour. It was an excruciating experience (I have new found respect for anyone who has given birth!), because the pain didn’t come in waves like contractions do, but was constant. Also, because my body wasn’t prepared for it to happen it went into shock and I was extremely sick and shook violently. So Justin rushed me into hospital where they gave me gas and air and pethidine, and then a second lot of the tablets to get the miscarriage to start. Over 7 hours later it still hadnt (Arthur and Martha had obviously decided to be stubborn and stay where they were, which I hope means I was providing a nice, comfy environment for them!) and the doctor said that it looked like the only option would be to operate to remove them.
I wasn’t very keen on having an operation, not only because I’ve had so many over the last couple of years, but also because I just wanted everything to happen as naturally as possible. Thankfully the twins didn’t seem to be keen either because an hour later they finally started to leave me, which by that stage came as a huge relief to us both. Because of all the problems of getting the miscarriage to start, and the intense pain it was causing, the doctor decided it would be best to “sweep out” as much of the pregnancy as they could then and there, so that the worst would be over quickly. By 11:30pm most of the pregnancy was gone, the pain was under control, and we finally got to come home.
The miscarriage still isn’t completely over, but the twins are gone now, and I feel relieved in a lot of ways, but also very sad. I still feel a bit shell-shocked from all that happened on Tuesday too, and physically very tired. Still, there’s no time to sit back and think about it, tomorrow I’m back off to the hospital to discuss re-starting the chemo – onwards and upwards…!
xxx
