#4 It’s Chemo Eve (shame that isn’t more like Christmas Eve) – Aug 23, 2007

Number of days to go until chemo starts: 1 (Eek!!)
Current level of panic about the whole thing: a sky high 9/10

I can’t believe it, I have reached the one day to go point! There are so many things whirling around my head right now about the chemo: will they be able to find a vein ok; how long will I have to be there for; will I have an allergic reaction to the Taxol; how long will it take until the sickness kicks in; how long will it take for the other side effects to start; what other side effects will I get and to what extent; will the anti-sickness tablets they give me work successfully; when will I start to feel better; how long will it be until my hair starts falling out and I have to shave it off, and so many more!

I know it’s awful to wish your life away, but man do I wish it was next March right now and this was all over! Still, short of creating the world’s first fully functioning time machine there is nothing for it but to try and get through the next 6 months with as much of my mind and body intact as possible. I’ll try to keep you updated with how it all goes from here on in, but right now I’m off to hyperventilate in a corner somewhere!

See you all on the other side of Number 1…

xxx